It says things too perfect. Too real. And everyone else is saying it... I don't like doing things that everyone else does.
But man... today I couldn't hide from it. Somehow, i feel that it might become my mantra for the next year.
This year is going to completely change our life as we know it. And that's just the things I know about. I don't even see the unseen things yet... but know they are there. I'm excited... but mostly terrified. I keep arranging conversations in my head that I want to have with different people to try to pre-fix things to minimize my hurt for the changes. I am trying to so hard not only to guard my heart, but PLAN everything for everyone so that it won't hurt me. WOW. How sad is that??
I've been down this hurt road before. It was the worst. But, at the end of it was the Best.
I just don't want to take THIS road, though!! There's got to be a better one!
God, guard my heart... and my mouth. When my heart is hurt, my mouth does it's own thing... and makes the hurt worse for me and all around me. Remind me of the blessings waiting for me...
Laura Story - "Blessings" Lyrics
We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things
Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
And we cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt Your goodness, we doubt Your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe
Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
And what if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home,
It's not our home
Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise
